This Beautiful, Chaotic Life that is Mine.

Words fail me most often. Chaos is quite literally the only way to describe my life lately.  Where to begin. I'm thankful that this won't reach as many people in my life as it could. At this moment, this keyboard and this computer are my confidant.

I rekindled an old relationship I was pretty sure was buried away forever. My heart was bitter and cold to any chance of this being mended. It is far from mended, but there was a start. What can come of anything without a start?
When I was a little girl, I would often dance with my father. The man who taught me how to waltz. The Beautiful Blue Danube. Whenever that glorious song meets me ear I am overwhelmed with emotion. I listen to the beautiful composition and close my eyes. There I am with my father. My hand in his and my arm propped up on his shoulder. We waltz from room to room spinning and smiling, so synchronized, so simple. What an impact those moments would have on my memory. I can feel it. We never worried about stepping on each others feet. We had practiced this after all. Each step and each spin. I had never felt so elegant or so light as when I was dancing around the living room with my father in my socks and pajamas.
Memories like this, it makes it so difficult to remember the hurt.
The promises that were broken and the tears that were shed cannot be undone, nor do they have to be. Every tear that streamed down my face is a reminder that I overcame the pain. It was never an easy thing to do. When you are forced to be strong when you don't necessarily want to be is never as glamorous as it is made out to be. There are grieves that cannot be spoken. I believe in myself though. There is always going to be reasons why I should worry about the past, but life is far to short to dwell on them.


I am sitting here, in a little coffee shop on the end of a road. People shuffling in and out of the door. Smiles on their faces and embracing the ones they encounter on the way. What a beautiful chaos each one of them must be facing at this moment. Where are their thoughts fleeting to? What is weighing on their minds and aching in their hearts? I like to try to imagine. Wonder.  I wonder if they wonder about my chaos as much as I wonder about theirs?

Today was too deep. eh.

Life waits for no man.

Life waits for no man. Sheesh. I have been a busy gal! Keeping up with my full time work and editing and loving all these beautiful pictures! That senior photo shoot was a great time! I am loving getting those pictures all edited to share with that graduate! :) 

This handsome young man did great! He was such a good sport and made this so easy! Made the shots come out better that I could have anticipated! 

As for me as of late? Well, I made my trip down to see my man this past weekend! //(I'm still peeling skin from my forehead as we speak) What a beautiful time it turned out to be! I need to migrate to be by a beach, yesterday would be preferable. :)

Life is such a beautiful thing. These pictures help me remember that. 

Busy Life!

Life has this amazing way of passing you by without even a wave. Goodness I have been busy. Mostly good things, of course. I'm excited to announce that I have been working pretty hard and getting some shoots in! I did a horse show, which was a lot, but a lot of fun too! Most recently, though, and most exciting is the senior shoot that I did today! So much fun! My model was strutting his stuff! :) I'm excited to share those things with you as I get them edited! :)

I'm so excited to get the rest of these up! :) yay! 

Exciting day!

Apart from my usual issues of misfortune that tends to happen in my chaotic life, today was productive. We went and shot a horseshow today. Lots of fun! Beautiful and magnificent horses we were lucky enough to take pictures of! Lots to do! I'll be posting my favorites!!!

So let me tell you about this dog..

So this is Gunner. This is that dog who keeps me on my toes like you wouldn't believe. My favorite stories will be shared now. 

*Gunner is an adopted dog. On our drive, the song Home, by Philip Phillips came on. This will forever be my song with my puppy. 

*This dog has jumped out of a moving cars window, jumped off a roof, killed a bat, pooped on a poodles head, and successfully stolen my heart time and time again. 

He is my sweet puppy who is smarter than he lets on, and his favorite game is the run away from mommy, then whine like crazy till I find him. 

My dog saved my life. 

I'm such a sap.

Wedding shots.

I don't necessarily mean the shots that are chased down with limes or that you regret in the morning. (though those did happen on these occasions too) oy.  But I have had the pleasure of being the photographer for two weddings. What a beautiful experience! Capturing the love that's shared between two people. Such a fun time. I just want to share SOME of those photos with you!!